Down Down Down
yes..i am feeling very sian, very down. I also dont know what really is the cause of it. But just feel like giving everything up, throw everything aside.
How will u feel when 3/4 of the class gets A+ and u only get A- for the assignment. Yes i know A- is already very gd le. But how come so many others are better?? Then the thing is the assignement was done with the help of my friend, one of the A+ holder. So far, all the assignments were done with his help. I always have problems doing on my own. WHY is this the case? Am i not trying hard enough?? Or am i just not good enough?? Must i always depend on my friend?? No him, i can't survive?? Seriously, my confidence level is dropping, dropping exponentially. Lost the will to fight.
Alright, maybe i am not hardworking enough, slacking my way since year 1. But why i just can't bring myself to work harder? Am i scare of falling, scare the harder i try, the harder i fall? Now is my final sem. I should be busy preparing my report for FYP. But why am i still not doing much? Still waiting for the time to past? I know i have to start, but why i just couldn't do it? Seriously, usually i won't be so bothered about my results, don't know why today i am so worked up about it. Maybe because this is not a stand-alone case ba. Sometimes i jsut feel myself very useless; there is nothing worth mentioning about me, well, i can't seem to find anything.
Many times i keep telling myself to work, not to be so slack, to try harder. But many times, i just can't find the motivation. I am always told not to compare with people. But it's so hard not to compare. Everyone hopes to be better than others in one way or another. I know i should do my best, but many times i couldn't. WHY?? What is my problem?
I know i shouldn't be complaining if i didn't even do my best. Anyway time to go for class, i will be alright, i guess. :)
How will u feel when 3/4 of the class gets A+ and u only get A- for the assignment. Yes i know A- is already very gd le. But how come so many others are better?? Then the thing is the assignement was done with the help of my friend, one of the A+ holder. So far, all the assignments were done with his help. I always have problems doing on my own. WHY is this the case? Am i not trying hard enough?? Or am i just not good enough?? Must i always depend on my friend?? No him, i can't survive?? Seriously, my confidence level is dropping, dropping exponentially. Lost the will to fight.
Alright, maybe i am not hardworking enough, slacking my way since year 1. But why i just can't bring myself to work harder? Am i scare of falling, scare the harder i try, the harder i fall? Now is my final sem. I should be busy preparing my report for FYP. But why am i still not doing much? Still waiting for the time to past? I know i have to start, but why i just couldn't do it? Seriously, usually i won't be so bothered about my results, don't know why today i am so worked up about it. Maybe because this is not a stand-alone case ba. Sometimes i jsut feel myself very useless; there is nothing worth mentioning about me, well, i can't seem to find anything.
Many times i keep telling myself to work, not to be so slack, to try harder. But many times, i just can't find the motivation. I am always told not to compare with people. But it's so hard not to compare. Everyone hopes to be better than others in one way or another. I know i should do my best, but many times i couldn't. WHY?? What is my problem?
I know i shouldn't be complaining if i didn't even do my best. Anyway time to go for class, i will be alright, i guess. :)
posted by JianWei at
2:04 PM
2 Comments:
dun slack anymore!!!wat u doing!? if u wan to be a slacker, u shld have done it long ago, not NOW!!buck up and good luck!
hey hey hey~~ long time no update your blog..u ok??
Anyway..sometimes at certain pt of time u'll feel sian & juz dun feel like doing anything..but rem..it's the last lap..juz one more lap & u'll be free le..so..jiayou!!~ cant get results, try again.. :)
We'll all be here to cheer u on k? :)
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